fast, very fast

fast how things can change
fast how things can separate
fast how things can go
within a minute?
or jus seconds?

i cant figure out why.
anyone there to tell me?

i want it all to come bac.
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emotion aka my box


emotions be it happy sad angry down everything seems to be stored in this box
when u are feeling happy most likely you have flooded the box with sweet stuffs
when u are feeling sad you might jus flood it with endless streams of tears
when u are feeling angry you blow into it
of cos when u blow and flood within a limit kept the box will still be pretty beautiful and intact.
on the other hand. there is always a point whrby u will jus flood too much that the box burst
box i believe there are thousands of them in you. one for one event happening in ur life i think.
you can fix them back. but you nid glue. glue to me is the drive i guess. sth that makes you continue doing sth. sth that regains ur trust for sth. sth that revives sth else.

my box for the sch tribute burst. i flooded and blew into the box too much.. so much that it burst. alright. perhaps its me having a chance to expose and learn more things to prepare for future i guess. i cant cope with conflicts and i meant it. conflicts be it with frens with things with everything. But my box for my frens seems to have mended. I believe that my box for film will mend itself too. i am hoping to do a film promise. I believe that promise have certain drive also. promise aint jus there to be there or jus to fill up the gap. I hope this film will be the breathing space i haf to bring bac my box for film.

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one thing i haf to clarify.. i am not angry to extreme extent neither am i sad to extreme extent that i left the convo. not that i given up 100% hope for film and wadeva. but i nid a breathing space after this hectic one.

to gupgup. one thing i wanna tell you is that i noe u haf ur difficulties also. but i wish you can change ur way of handling things when it comes to a stupid encounter with freaking lots of restrictions.. still good frens eh? ;D i duno how i should put it in msn convo.. so tada its here in this blogpost. other pple dun uds then jus heck care. :D